Then slowly things change, you change..Kisses no more, just light pecks on the cheek. No holding hands or barely even speak. Late night calls to say "I love you boo" change to early morning calls to say "Sorry I didn't call last night I was sleepy" or "You know I don't like talking on the phone". Anticipation of when the hurt will end. Heaviness of heart replaces love that was within. Quite nights filled with muffled tears..just want to curl and die.
I gave you my heart, my time, my love, my soul. So now I have to purify myself of you, my heart has caught up with my head. Am I a Angry Black Woman you ask. Oh No! You see because of you I have drawn closer to God, I'm wiser, stronger, and quicker to recognize BULLSHIT! Besides if I thought YOU were the ONE (but you weren't) MY! MY! the ONE God has for me is going to blow my mind..because he assured me that "Eyes have not seen, ears have not heard or entered the hearts of them that love Him.."
NSABW
Yes! I'm loving this! It truly reflects the thoughts of alot of women,myself included. Your words feel as though they were snatched from my brain & put on the computer screen. The wide range of emotions that we experience within this "love" thing are so real. At one point, it seemed so difficult for me to describe yet now that I look at your words, you describe it perfectly. Good stuff diva!! I look forward to reading more of your work!
ReplyDeleteWell said and lovin it. May every tear you dropped and then came two. And along with those tears was a raging storm inside of you. But also the promise of God that said "this man is not true. I have a better much better man for you. Because he isn't worthy and does not belong by your side. The one I have will give you time,love and respect not tears of pain nor any regrets.
ReplyDeleteEvery God given creation given to wo-man is made for good and is perfect from above. When you gave your heart,time and soul God knew that this was not your mate, and you are worth more than the lies he told. As you said."I have drawn closer to God, I'm wiser, stronger, and quicker to recognize BULLSHIT! Thank you diva for pointing this out and passing the test.
Your words of wisdom I pray they sink deep and your expression of the "ONE" that gave you understanding, wisdom and drew you nearer to be able to write out these visons . Most relationships has their endings but having you write about the it as a whole from beggining to end and what it may hold gives all women a hope and a beggining more than an end with that said I give it back to you, and please please keep doing what you do. Write On.