WHY?

WHY DO YOU SEND ME A DOZEN ROSES “JUST BECAUSE“, KNOWING IT CAN NEVER BE

WHY DO YOU CALL ME ON “THE LOW", KNOWING IT CAN NEVER BE

WHY DO YOU SPOIL ME WITH VACATIONS, JEWELRY & MONEY KNOWING IT CAN NEVER BE

WHY DO YOU GET JEALOUS WHEN I’M WITH “HIM” KNOWING IT CAN NEVER BE

WHY DO YOU MAKE LOVE TO ME SO PASSIONATELY KNOWING IT CAN NEVER BE

WHY DO YOU TELL ME YOU LOVE ME KNOWING IT CAN NEVER BE

BECAUSE I DO LOVE YOU JUST NOT TOTALLY FREE

BECAUSE YOU TALK AND LISTEN, AND SHE NAGS AND SCREAMS

BECAUSE YOU APPRECIATE THE SIMPLE THINGS AND SHE IS SO EXTREME

BECAUSE YOU AND I WERE MEANT TO BE LET THAT “CHAP” BE

BECAUSE YOU ARE MY “SUGAR BABY” AND SHE IS JUST “MY OLD LADY”

BECAUSE I DO LOVE YOU JUST NOT TOTALLY FREE

WHY DO I LOVE YOU KNOWING IT CAN NEVER BE

WHY DO I LET YOU IN KNOWING IT CAN NEVER BE

WHY DO I LET YOU WHISPER SWEET NOTHINGS IN MY EAR KNOWING IT CAN NEVER BE

WHY DO I GET MAD WHEN YOU DON’T CALL KNOWING IT CAN NEVER BE

WHY DO I WASTE MY TIME KNOWING IT CAN NEVER BE

WHY DO I HURT WHEN YOU LEAVE KNOWING IT CAN NEVER BE

BECAUSE I’M LONELY AND TIRED OF BEING WITH ME

BECAUSE YOU HAVE MY SOUL LOCKED DOWN CANT GET OUT

BECAUSE YOUR VOICE PUTS ME IN A TRANCE CAN’T END THIS DANCE

BECAUSE YOU KNOW IM WITH FAMILY BUT MY HEARTS WITH YOU SWEETIEE

BECAUSE YOU WILL BE MINE WITH TIME AND SHE WILL BE A MEMORY

BECAUSE IN MY MIND YOU AND I WERE MEANT TO BE

NSABW

Diary of A Not So Angry Black Woman

It's amazing how relationships begin and END. The beginning starts on a wonderful note. Kisses, hugs, holding hands, late night phone calls just to say "I love you boo". Anticipation until we see each other again. Hearts flutter, smiles on the cloudiest of days, tears of joy at the thought of you.

Then slowly things change, you change..Kisses no more, just light pecks on the cheek. No holding hands or barely even speak. Late night calls to say "I love you boo" change to early morning calls to say "Sorry I didn't call last night I was sleepy" or "You know I don't like talking on the phone". Anticipation of when the hurt will end. Heaviness of heart replaces love that was within. Quite nights filled with muffled tears..just want to curl and die.

I gave you my heart, my time, my love, my soul. So now I have to purify myself of you, my heart has caught up with my head. Am I a Angry Black Woman you ask. Oh No! You see because of you I have drawn closer to God, I'm wiser, stronger, and quicker to recognize BULLSHIT! Besides if I thought YOU were the ONE (but you weren't) MY! MY! the ONE God has for me is going to blow my mind..because he assured me that "Eyes have not seen, ears have not heard or entered the hearts of them that love Him.."

NSABW